Zee’s Transformation
“I don’t get poetry, and I don’t like it,” she said.
The young woman, new to our drop-in poetry and spoken word workshop looked around the group with tears in her eyes. “But I’m here because my best friend loved it, so I’m doing this for her.” Zee shared that her best friend had committed suicide while the two were talking on the phone—and that not only did others blame her for her friend’s death, but she blamed herself, as well.
Weeks passed, and Zee began showing up more regularly. With each workshop, she blossomed a bit more—cracked a small smile, lent a listening ear to another participant, and shared her poetry with the group.
This heartbroken 16-year-old wrote of fear and loss, of determination and misperception, and slowly a light began to flicker within her.
She had stoked the flame of self-discovery, ignited by the safety of a creative space in which to share her struggles and learn of her promise.
Today, Zee throws back her head and laughs along with the others who attend the workshops. She has been here every week for months and has sustained friendships with the drop-in youth who have shared their own stories of triumph, sorrow, and hope. She has performed for the agency at First Friday events and plans to continue to represent our programs in the community.
Even though Zee began coming to Art from Ashes to honor her friend and will always remember that is why she attends, she has embraced her own voice, as well as her creativity and her potential.
Hear AfA on KGNU’s “Outsources”
A few weeks ago, Art from Ashes facilitator Franklin Cruz and youth participant Rachel Icolari joined KGNU’s Jeffrey Hoyle on “Outsources,” KGNU’s programming focused on LGBTQ+ news.
In the segement, Franklin and Rachel shared their perspectives on poetry, queer expression, youth expression through poetry and the transforming power on Art From Ashes programming.
“Really what we want our youth to understand is, for one, being able to express themselves because, especially for our queer youth, there’s not really a platform for people to have a meaningful listening conversation with them,” Franklin explained. “We find that if you just give them a few minutes to write down something that’s really integral to their identity or what they’re going through, and just listen, they’ll feel so much more equipped to handle the everyday processes that they have to go through simply because they find support.”
In the half hour segement, they covered a variety of AfA programming, the transformative effect poetry can have in the lives of queer and struggling youth, and their own personal experiences.
Check out the segement for yourself at this link, and hear the powerful words for yourself. A special thanks to KGNU for featuring us and our work. Art from Ashes looks forward to continuing to share more of ourselves and our efforts with the Denver and Colorado community.
Art is a Function of the Brain
by Johnny Fuenzalida
One of the trademarks of being a conscious being is having a brain, an organic command center to execute the functions of all of our voluntary and involuntary actions. The way your eyes just blinked, the amount of bile your liver just secreted into your bloodstream and the firmness with which you press the elevator call-button are traced back to the luminous and tireless neurons racing through your synapses. This also means that the practices of making and observing art are both functions of our brains — from the choice of canvas to the feeling of utter elation after seeing a sold out Salt-N-Pepa show, our brains actually show measurable behaviors that correspond to our experiences.
In 2013, Professor Adam Zeman headed a team of neuroscientists at the University of Exeter studying the differences between bland, technical prose (a heater installation instruction manual was used) and poetry. Using functioning magnetic resource imaging (fMRI), the team discovered that while both prose and poetry activated the “reading centers” of the brain, the emotional impact of the poetry was found in the same part of the brain that lights up when we’re emotionally stirred by music. The study also revealed that poetry strongly affected the posterior cingulated cortex, a region of the brain where introspection takes place. Poetry, therefore, has the ability to produce the same “chilling” effect that a beautiful piece of music does, while giving us a heady dose of self-reflection. When it comes to creating the poetry, however, a different set of rules apply.
Dr. Matthew Lieberman, a neuroscientist at the University of California, conducted a study in which he scanned the brains of 30 participants while they were shown distressing pictures. The participants, while writing, tended to have decreased emotional activity and a strong increase in the pre-frontal cortex—the executive and cognitive areas of the brain. This means that writing about a scenario that normally produces anxiety can actually have a cathartic, therapeutic effect. However, the more vivid and descriptive the writing became, the subjects appeared less relaxed, essentially “reliving” a traumatic experience. Why? Let’s ask science!
In the 1990s, many scientists began to focus their research on how the brain responds to language. Going back to the trusty fMRI machines, they scanned the brains of individuals hearing and reading very descriptive writing. Researches had determined that the processing of language wasn’t contained in a single “module,” of the brain, as scientists had previously believed. Benjamin Bergen, researcher at the University of California, says that language is actually “a whole-brain type of process.”
Hypothetically, if I say that, sitting inside and writing this article while it’s such a beautiful day outside is as comfortable as wearing wet socks, your brain immediately recalls the sensory experience of wet socks, and also conjures up an image of me working at a computer. You could also probably determine my stress level based on the comparison of the image and the feelings. “The way that you understand an action is by recreating in your vision system what it would look like to perceive that event and recreating in your motor system what it would be like,” Bergen says.
This is the reason vivid and descriptive writing of traumatic experiences can increase levels of anxiety. This is also why it’s easy to cringe when reading an account of physical pain (especially one that we have personally experienced).
While the true nature of artistic expression is still an ever elusive concept, these experiments have shown that art is biologically devoted to mankind’s mental processing of the world. Throughout our day-to-day routine activities, we are unconsciously using the same mechanisms that engineer the most imaginative, empathic masterpieces that we know of.
PATHS Poets
Here is some selected poetry from our Positive Alternatives Through Home Services (PATHS) youth.
I Seem to Be… But Really I Am
by Christian, age 17
I seem to be in a lost world that I can’t find a way out
I’m the only one who understands me
People see me as a monster
But really I am a good kid who made a bad decision
I was at the wrong place at the wrong time
I try to stay out of trouble
But somehow it keeps finding me
It has me trapped
Every time I get up
It knocks me down
I am a bright young man
I try not to judge
In order to not be judged
I choose to be the kid that everyone has
Something nice to say all the time
The person that people look up to
Most importantly
The person my brother wants to look up to
Upside Down to Right Side Up
by Tay, 17
Something goes wrong
Then something gets fixed
Went from fucking and smoking weed
To becoming pregnant and drug-free
Went from ditching school and fighting
To making the honor roll
And receiving more friends than enemies
Went from getting cussed out and put out
To becoming stable and settled
Never giving up has brought me thus far
Being hard headed has opened my eyes
I Remember
by Gloria, 19
I remember when everyone doubted me
They said I was never going to get my son back
I remember when my mom disowned me
She said she should have aborted me when she had the chance
I remember when my dad almost killed my brother
He beat him so bad his face was a bucket of blood
I remember when I almost killed myself
Everything was reminding me of why I needed to be dead
I remember when I lost it all because of drugs
I thought they would take my pain but it added more
I remember when I had my son that day
I had never seen a baby angel before
I remember when my brother lost everything
He said I am a worthwhile sister who deserves it all
I remember when my son said I love you
He just made me feel so important
I remember when my mom said I love you while she was sober
She almost made my wish come true
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by Harmony S
My dad was never in my life
But because of that
My big brother raised me
And I’d never change that for the world
I am who I am today
Thanks to my brother
I am strong because of all the things I’ve lost in life
My brother always taught me
No matter hard it is
You need to move on from the past
And it can’t hold you back
I can smile like I do today
Because of the hurt in my past
What I Would Say To You If Only
by Gloria, 19
I cannot be perfect so please just accept me
I feel so lost at this point
I feel like I am not even me anymore
I am too busy trying to be a person I am not
Who I don’t know if she exists
Please just understand I am not a perfect person
I know it is said God gives
The hardest battles to his strongest soldiers
But I am not that strong
I need a break
So please stop pushing me to be something
And just please accept who I am for once
Who knows you might start to like me better
If I may get my chance up a bit more
You might find out what a best friend just means
So please understand I am not perfect
So just please just stop
And give me a break
Give me a chance to show you
I am not just another Mexican girl
And learn that I can be more
Than just the person you want me to be
Please don’t torture me any more
With the things that happened way before
Learn that it’s good to just be you
And that I am fine just the way I dream to be
I just want you to understand
I am not perfect
I don’t want to be perfect
I never was perfect I will never be perfect
And this is exactly what I would say to you
If I could only get you to listen to me
Colorado Creative Industries Awards AfA $7,500
Colorado Creative Industries Awards AfA $7,500 to help fund the growth and introduction of new programs that foster self-realization and empowerment.
AfA Hosts A Successful, Whimsical Mad Hatter Tea Party
On August 27th, AfA had a WONDERful time at our first annual Mad Hatter Tea Party! More than 20 guests fell down the rabbit hole with us to enjoy live music, youth poetry, whimsical decor, and a fanciest hat contest. Participants also got to savor delectable treats and delicious tea from our friends over at Drip Denver. Hats off to all who came out to our event!
Members of Steampunk not only loaned us most of the tea service, but donated some tea, as well!
AfA’s youth intern Hibaq Osman performed two poems: one of which is called “Paper Moon.”
Denver County Fair!
Thankful Thursday: Power
by Drew Myron
“At what’s been dubbed the ‘craziest county fair in America,’ pies and pigs mix with zombies, drag queens, and crazy cats (Lil Bub!). In the whirl of all this, poetry sings. And as Director of Poetry (I love this title), I get to orchestrate all kinds of fun: a poetry contest, a poetry performance, and a poetry booth. Along with the contest, the Poetry Performance featured powerful readings by youth poets from Art from Ashes.
‘I’m a recovered addict,’ Tyler told the audience. ‘Poetry transformed my life.’
‘I just had my last day of chemo,’ announced Vaniesha. ‘Poetry gives me strength.’
Their words burned up the stage and ignited energy.”
Read more here by Drew Myron about AfA’s presentation at the Denver County Fair in July!
Poetry of June 2015
Enjoy some of our favorite poetry from June 2015!
Lyrical Miracle
By Kevin, 17
I am a lyrical miracle
Diving in through my words
Like a swimming pool
A criminal, snatching meanings
And dissecting them to a minimal
I am a scattered brain
That has no pain
And feels no shame
No regrets, place your bets,
Write down my name,
So you don’t forget
Shy
By Jodi, 12
Shy wears boring colors
Blending in with the crowd.
Shy lives in a house
Like the others around it.
Shy only talks around the people
She trusts.
Friends, family
Sometimes even pets.
She eats plain food
Nothing too fancy
She wants people to see her
But in a way they move on
After a few seconds
Being the center of attention
Makes her uncomfortable
So she hides whenever she can
Happy
By Jose, 10
Happy would wear regular clothes
A t-shirt, a yellow t-shirt
And pants with sneakers with strings
Happy lives in a house
With small dogs
And toys
Happy works as a baker
Making cakes for birthdays
And cookies
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By Gabriel, 11
Love is the color of
Red like roses
Cool careful
And loving so it won’t die
Love is never ending
Love is the sound of
Wind chimes wind going
Threw and crystal like sounds
Love taste like warm huggs
In front of the fireplace
Love feels like everyone
In the family cares about you
And it like and oversized
Stuffed teddy bear
Love moves like a
Slow hugging and feeling
Like a million bucks
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By Jesus, 12
I am a tree poet
I live in the ground
The tree grows seeds first
My poems the roots come out
Of the tree
The rain comes out
Then the branches come out
I am a snow poet
I fall out of the sky with clouds
The snow is white and on the floor
My poems do fall freeze then on
The floor then it gets big and bigger
Until the ground is full of snow
I am a flower poet
I am a flower and the flowers come
Out of a seed
My poem’s a seed
And seeds and water
Grow and the water
Makes flowers grow
I am a grass poet
I need water to grow and dirt
To make roots
My poems are making dirt and water
I need seeds and water
And I need dirt
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By Matthew, 8
I am a dragon poet
I like dragons and they are cool
And they breath fire
My poems hunt
Fly
Finding
Friend
Riding
Playing
Cool
Be the best dragon
I Seem To Be
By Shada, 16
I seem to be smart
But really I am genius
I seem to be happy
But really I am super duper happy
I seem to be capable
But really I am able to do anything I want